This weekend was AMAZING! I just wanted everyone to know.

Friday I went to see The Rocky Horror Picture Show. It's an annual event...lots of fun (pictures are on Facebook). I think we had almost 75 people show up to see. Unfortunately, there were Lots of virgins in the audience, so there weren't many to yell the callback lines. But not a big deal. The people who went to see it with me and I all made up for it. It was still amazing. lol.

Saturday, my friend Josh made breakfast (pictures also on Facebook) for everyone. My friend John and I went together. Then that night John and I hung out with my exboyfriend (also named John). We watched a movie, made macaroni and cheese, and played Apples to Apples and Pit. If you havent played Pit, I recommend it. It's a stock market game. It was a lot of fun.

So, before I go on, I should probably explain who John is because you'll see his name a lot I think (assuming I write a lot, that is). John is a guy I met through the student theatre group here. He played my boyfriend in one of the plays that we were in (called "Pencil Break"). Then, after the show was over, we started dating for real, but we werent really committed. We decided to end it after about two weeks because summer was approaching and we didn't feel it was the right time. I, at the time, felt it wasn't working and it wouldn't work at all. I refer to him many times as "John Faber" ("Faber" was the name of the character he played in "Pencil Break"). My exboyfriend John, is Left Handed John (just thought I'd distinguish between the two).

Well, when we got back from break John Faber (from here on assume that is who I'm talking about when I say "John") and I discovered we have a common interest in the new show "Heroes" on NBC. So, we started watching it together every Monday when it airs. Then we started eating dinner together because he was getting worried that I wasn't eating enough. Last week, we were eating together every night of the week, except for Thursday. Tuesdays and Thursdays are my crazy days. I have class from 8am-4:30pm. Then, at 7:30, I fence. Thursday, I had a meeting with a friend of mine at 5, then another meeting at 6, then fenicng at 7:30. It was insane. I didn't get to talk to or see John all day. I realized how unbearable that day was because I didn't get to spend time with him.  Shortly after, we started realizing how close we'd become in the past week and how we had unintentionally rekindled our feelings for each other. I think what made us realize this was the fact that whenever we hung out, I would trick him into putting his arm around me and then admitted that I tricked him. Or he would take my hand, without thinking about it....just because it felt right.

So, Saturday night/Sunday morning (it was around midnight), when Left Handed John left, John Faber said, "We need to talk." He asked if I wanted to try a relationship again. I did. I realized how wrong I had been for thinking that it wouldn't work out. I think that since summer isn't two weeks away like it was last spring, things will work out better this time. And there are three other important assests that he has:

1) He's not a fencer....no incest
2) He won't be graduating at the end of this semester like every other guy I know and love
3) He's uber-Catholic...so there's a fairly good chance he won't turn gay on me

I am soo happy. He is the most amazing person that I could ever have in my life. I think I'm finally doing this whole relationship thing right. I think this is not going to end tragically. In fact, I'm pretty sure I hope it doesn't end at all. And this is me and John:

Anyway, just thought that was significant info that you all needed to know. Other things that happend: A sucky superbowl with sucky comercials, a ton of homework, and no fencing. But John and I watched "Heroes" last night with a few of his friends. And it felt so perfect to be in his arms.

JAN: Nothing eventful happened...
FEB: Lefty John and I broke up three days before our three month anniversary, a week before Valentine's Day and two weeks before my birthday.....had a "party" in my dorm room for my bday....in fact, my parents came up that day to see me and bring me presents and a chocolate cake!
MARCH: The night before midterms two of my friends and i went to Eerie to watch the sunrise over Lake Erie....almost missed my midterm, but fanagled my way out of trouble...fun times....
APRIL: Fencing Tournament at PSU....much excitement!!! First time I really fenced for real....I mean, not that I hadn't ever tried, but first time I realized I really could do it. All my inhibitions were raised that day...for those of you who know my mother, you know the kind of inhibitions that I have. Also, the TOST and Turned plays were that month. First time, I ever got a leading role in a play that more than ten six-year-olds were watching...huzzah!! Began dating another kid named John...
MAY: Fencing tournament....came in ninth which was actually worse than my rank in the fall of '05, HOWEVER, I beat more people using skill as opposed to beating them because they dropped out of the tournament...so in essence, I did better....fencing party....crazyness.....TOST party.....not so crazy, but a ton of fun....told John it wasn't working out...
JUNE: Went to Florida for a week and stayed at the Animal Kingdom Lodge....we had wild animals living in our backyard and when I say wild animals I don't mean squirrels and woodchucks and stuff...I mean, giraffes, zebras, antelope, bongos, and kudu! I also started working at a girl scout camp.....purchased my first fencing foil...was told it was probably a waste of money, but I really don't care....
JULY: Nothing noteworthy happened....
AUGUST: Almost died....I was driving to work and almost got hit head on by a truck, my being alive today is due to my superior swerving skills.....note the word "almost" and it wasn't my fault, he didn't look before he made the turn. Vacationed in Baltimore....attempted a long over due relationship with a kid at home....failed miserably after three weeks....started bandcamp....began a terrible bout of depression.....also started my problem with eating...the problem being that I didn't eat.... 
SEPT: Found out one of my best friends is dating one of my ex-boyfriends.....after I thought about it for a while I found it didn't really surprise me....in fact, I think I could probably have guessed it would have happened back when I was dating him....I know things like that sometimes...
OCT: One of my friends decided he was gay....that didn't really surprise me either....in fact, I think a part of me half expected it....didn't make it any easier to accept tho....didn't do much for the depression either...Halloween party....failed miserably at being clever...oh well...
NOV: Met a guy named Matt....things are still uncertain between us, but he seems to really like me and care about me and a few of the fencing guys met him and apparantly approve...discovered that I dropped to 97 pounds....
DEC: Fencing tournament...finished in sixth, but only because of a technicality....it probably should have been fifth, but I had a really bad bout with one of the other girls...I'm not sure why, but I'll work it out for next time.....almost lost my grandfather because he stopped eating for several days...might have helped me snap out of my own bad eating habits, but then I'm so unstable who can really be sure??

And Dec. 31st found me eating dinner with Chad, walking around a playground, and watching V For Vendetta together....which is how I began my 2007....sitting on my couch at home with my ex-boyfriend....

As for my resolutions, two big ones right now, but I may think of more later:

1) Finsh writing something....anything....the plan is to publish something in a science fiction magazine by the end of the year....but I'll be satisfied with something that I was writing being finished.....

2) Stay at or above 100 lbs. (I know, I probably already haven't kept that one....)